Less than a week later...

The balloons are starting to deflate and it's becoming more and more clear that I'm not just here visiting. I won't be going back to England any time soon. January seems so far away today. My dad has been doing a good job trying to keep my mind off of it with a trip to Ikea, boating and a baseball game tonight. It just seems like part of me is missing. I think even the dogs can sense it.
I feel so much more quiet. I don't have Ryan to talk about everything, nothing, and to just get me - sorta.
I feel like one of the girls in a Caroline Hwang illustration.
I'll try hard to not let this blog turn into a whinefest!